You know when it feels like you’re wasting your time?
I wasted years
Time I ain’t getting back
Healing and fixing. Backing up when I got close to a breakthrough.
Fear took over. I let it beat me every time
You feel like you’re on the edge of something that feels crazy to you and you take a step back
I can’t have that. I can’t do that. I can’t be that. Who the fuck do I think I am?
The conditioned self is like a spoilt child. It has to win at all costs and it won’t back down
The cost is what you want. Who you’re here to be. Your life
Staying small and stuck is its game and it’ll do anything to win
So you stay in the job you hate. The life you don’t want. That you that’s making you sad with the bs head fuck that comes with it
Until you drop that shit you’ll carry on being a fake you
Yes it’s fake. Your power scares you. The force you know you’re here to be scares you and you’ll always be stuck until you let go of this shit. Dreaming of what could be
Keep putting the bs aside. Not listening to it. Not believing it. Not letting it win
On the other side is everything you’re here to be, do and have
Do what you know you need to do
No maybe I will
Because you fucking can